I sit tonight at home, listening to music, drinking and musing about what life has taught me so far, nothing.
So, I decided to write it down, cause without a drink, I'll never have the courage to say what I want to say.
I've learned that you get warned a couple of times, venture too far and danger will descend from above.
I've learned that you never have anything to do about how life treats you, all you can do is accept it, with acceptance, things get better.
I've learned that what people think of you only matters to your ego, but not to your true self.
I've also found out that life is but a sentence of imprisonment followed by execution.
Most importantly, I've found that you are what you believe yourself to be, believe too much and it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, never ever fulfill it.
Do what's good for you, or you're not good for anybody.
One last thing, never ever be sceptic of a gift, accept it as is, turning it down is worse than tucking it in your closet, cause you've let someone down, someone who tried to make you happy, but was turned down with his gift.
Don't ever assume you know everything, everyone knows something, the something someone else knows, might be new to you.
I've paid the price for my arrogance, when will you see it fit to ordain my debt paid, I can't pay anymore.

9 comments:
Interesting reflections.
It's weird, that reflection about turning down gifts...this exact thing happened with me today. And you're right it is very disappointing.
i agree so much with ur second point..
it is difficult for life to be drawn the way we wish, only very lucky ppl can do it and not for too long.
i to think acceptance helps, but it's hard, don't u think?
but isn't ego part of ur "self"... how much ego you allow yourself to have says a lot about you, no?
"do what's good for you...." amen to that :)
hey, one can get skeptic, they just have to be polite about it; accept the gift and try to find the catch... people are raarely ever that kind!
I must've been real tired, I fell asleep with the laptop sitting beside me, anyway.
I'll address the gift at the end, since this ones seems to have hit everyone.
Accepting reality is very difficult, there's a whole disorder about not accepting reality, called Schizophrenia.
But let me tell you my own experience on that one, there came a time, around 11 months ago when I felt I had made a wrong choice about something.
Oh, the many attempts I tried to undo my decisions, the many favours I called in to help me get out of this, the many places I asked.
Till, one day, I just realized what I needed to learn, nothing can be done about it, I'm here in this predicament just so I can learn humility and acceptance.
Let me tell you something, after I let it rest, 5 days later, a switch in events took place, my predicament was no more, and not through undoing the wrong choice, but through circumstances changing in my favour.
Ego, by definition, your ego inflates your self-esteem, your confidence in your ability to overcome whatever's thrown your way.
Question, if I'm so good, do I need God, it's one or the other, one grows, the other fades away, they never walk hand in hand.
"Do what's good to you", Billy Joel, James.
Now, the juicy one, Gifts.
Do you believe, people give gifts, or God sends you a gift through someone??
Answer this, my case rests.
when they asked whether the human is free or forced to make his decision, the best answer i read is that we r free in making our decision coz Allah won't punish us for deeds that we r forced to do them, and that Allah previously knowledge that we would take such actions does not contradict or limit such freedom but our freedom might be limited by the fate.
so to answer ur question; sorry but u would never know coz it might be ur fate to get a gift by a certain person or the person decided that u have to get such a gift
And does the person decide or doe God decide through him?
this is a rewrite of a comment that failed to publish :-/
acceptance... "what's done is done and can't be undone", if only we stopped there! it takes a lot for each of us to sit there and learn the lesson to be learnt!
ego... i tend to think that ego is not a bad thing, within norms... why would we call some egos sick, unless some were perfectly healthy!
"Question, if I'm so good, do I need God, it's one or the other, one grows, the other fades away, they never walk hand in hand"
i'm not sure i'm getting your point, elaborate??
now the trick question ;)
we agreed that there are lessons to be learnt (or i assumed that somewhere!)... so even gifts are given for a reason (even those sent by God through people)... makes me worry what the reason is and whether it implies something in return from me, even if it's something as simple as gratitude! now am i willing to show that kind of emotion to someone with whom i might be having issues? am i expected to return a favor?
Most of these stuff we all know but seems to forget and it's good to be reminded.
"Most importantly, I've found that you are what you believe yourself to be, believe too much and it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, never ever fulfill it."
but is it a bad thing to try to always believe you were meant for great things.
I thought we were supposed to reach for the stars.
I had visions of grandeur not so long ago, where did it get me?
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