I have no clue what triggerred these events in the last few days.
I had been feeling really down, over-stressed, unappreciated and isolated.
This had led me to do stupid things like picking fights with everyone, my inability to take the lightest of practical jokes and a certain un-craving for life in general, I even beat one of my colleagues at work.
My temper was getting out of hand to the extent that I was called last thursday to the C.F.O.'s office asking me to leave earlier than usual as I was causing too many problems, he told me to go fix my own problems over the weekend and come back on sunday with a clearer head.
Well, I am glad to announce that it was all in my head, nothing more, nothing less.
Certain attitudes around me were stepping on my nerves, cause of my usual habit of associating different - sometimes unrelated - events together to try and form a pattern.
I was getting the wrong patterns.
Anyway, I'm back, I hope permanently this time.
5 comments:
Glad it was all in your head pal it usually is try to not get fixated on it so it would not drag you down and remember all the time that this head of yours got you in trouble and do not trust it that much.. Fixate on something else even if trivial it works for me like a charma
I totally agree with Paul and hope you feel better now :)
man i wish i could beat up someone... please tell me it didn't feel good cause i am really tempted!
Actually, what I'm trying to get myself to do now makes me look crazy.
Today while I was driving to work, whenever my head strayed in the wrong direction I'd give myself a slap on the face, and try to recollect some good memories.
Usually it's Sou's face when she smiles.
"El dark mesh beyetmassel" style, you know
Insomniac,
It feels temporarily relieving, but the after effect is real bad.
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