Pheonix

Looks like suffering is the real furnace in which we are all thrown to be molded into realising our true potentials.

I remember every scar, every hardship and every gauntlet I've had to run.

I remember the bitterness, confusions and frustrations, how I sometimes succumbed, how on other occasions I knew deep inside that it was a passing phase.

But I also remember how I waited for these phases to end, they never did unless when I stopped waiting, looks like in waiting I'm judging Him.

But at the end of the day, I emerged out of this furnace battle-scarred and harder to break.

Like a pheonix rising out of the ashes, more potent than ever.

Where had I gone

I have no clue what triggerred these events in the last few days.

I had been feeling really down, over-stressed, unappreciated and isolated.

This had led me to do stupid things like picking fights with everyone, my inability to take the lightest of practical jokes and a certain un-craving for life in general, I even beat one of my colleagues at work.

My temper was getting out of hand to the extent that I was called last thursday to the C.F.O.'s office asking me to leave earlier than usual as I was causing too many problems, he told me to go fix my own problems over the weekend and come back on sunday with a clearer head.

Well, I am glad to announce that it was all in my head, nothing more, nothing less.

Certain attitudes around me were stepping on my nerves, cause of my usual habit of associating different - sometimes unrelated - events together to try and form a pattern.

I was getting the wrong patterns.

Anyway, I'm back, I hope permanently this time.

Hunger

Yes, I'm hungry, lunch is late today.

I decided to dose for a while till lunch and had a funny dream.

I dreamt I was visited by a friend of mine who asked me to go with him on an errand, upon entering his car I found his dog in the backseat.

We entered a restaurant and he ordered steaks for the dog.

I sat there watching the dog eat and was awfully hungry.

Then I woke up with the odour of grilled steaks filling my nostrils.

Looks like that's what we're having for lunch today.

I'm off to catch the steaks.

Waiting

Bad news travels fast, that's the only thing that's keeping me sane.

Attendance

It has come to my attention that suddenly they've instructed the company's security to write our names down upon entering and leaving the company.

Now, to me, this is insulting, I do not need a security guy to monitor my movement, we're grown ups, task-oriented professionals, we shouldn't be held to time schedules, and sure as hell, I shouldn't be put under surveillance by some security guy.

They have time stamped ID's, we stamp on our way in and on our way out, this is sufficient.

Upon confronting the HR manager with this, he asked me the most stupid question ever.

"And what if you've given your ID to someone else to stamp for you?"

Now this is unheard of, if you don't trust us enough to finish our jobs and abide by the working hours, then just fire us, terminate our contracts, but this is insulting.

Honestly, have we reached the point where our employer distrusts us so much?

And for the record, I - complainer - happen to be the first one who shows up at the company premises, but I still find it insulting and degrading.

Mentally Cohesive

As some of you know, I have an online gaming addiction, I've formed a small collective of similar players, lately we've been joined by this Japanese guy.

Tbh, I'm having difficulty understanding what he has to say, his English is good, but his logic in forming sentences definitely defies my logic in understanding them, the below is a typical message of his:

Standard deviation is not acceptable for general climate variability.
It can be used if climate variation spectrum is "white".
Generally this planet climate is "ringing" with several resonances, or cicles, making standard deviation meaningless.

This was in response to a question I was asking about what the US foreign policy was headed with this world.

Can anyone help me understand what he's trying to say???

Boring day

Today is the aftermath of Sunday's storm, that's the problem with my job, I get everything cramped in one day, lots of deadlines, then absolute and utter emptiness of schedule.

I become "ta7t el talab".

So far, today looks like a quiet day, nothing is expected to happen.

Guess it's a day for Sudoku, reading blogs and playing online games.

Or maybe I should start pulling people's legs, become abusive, I haven't been abusive in a while.

Guess I'll just be content with giving the junior a hard time, maybe some push-up's are in order *Evil Grin*

Honestly, any ideas to fill up this boring day?