Who is Slop

Well , since I'm rather new to blogging, I don't know where to begin, thought it best to introduce my self - as in inner self - without actually disclosing too much about me, for reasons that I will disclose later.

I'm just a normal everyday guy, who has been blessed with all the gifts of life by God, counting my blessings, I've found that I have most of what people want, a balanced, rather wealthy family, a career that most people envy me for, good looks, all the works.

So what would make me write, a happy life never makes for good writing, it's the suffering that makes for interesting stuff.

Let's dig a little deeper, a few questions that need answering, why is someone such as me not yet involved in anything long term, what bores me so much as to not be able to stick somewhere for a long time.

Looking back at people, I find that the person I most resemble is not a real character, it's a movie character, Tristan (Brad Pitt in Legends of the fall).

Not a person to be around with, am I, the self motivated, ambitious, selfish person lies within us all, but do we indulge him, or do we quieten him, do we quench the thirst for personal ambition, or do we learn to let us fuel us instead of us fuelling it.

People look at me and they see a strong set man in his late twenties who likes to be in control of people, a person who comes up with the latest piece of sarcasm for lesser people, an optimist who aims to please and yet subdue people around him, a centre of attention for his boss, who's also able to gain his subordinates' trust and loyalty.

I look at me and I see a pretender, someone who hides behind his mask of indifference, aggressive yet controlled attitude, a person who disapproves of everything and everyone around him, expensive tastes that can only be satisfied through expensive funding.

A notorious bachelor, who will not commit to anything, whether it be job, family or a woman, always devious in my ways to keep a way out for myself, while keeping myself indisposable to people, in case I decide to change my mind and come back one day.

The question of the hour for people around me is, "how come you're not married yet?", I keep asking myself this question, or a rather more interesting question, do I want to be married, honestly I don't know.

All I do know is, that I'll always be there for people I value, even if I threaten to do otherwise, I'll always be in the background looking after their well-being, even if they don't know about it or they don't want me to, it's not an option.

Now that was a boring piece of shit, but it's all I have to say for today, hope the next one comes up with something better.